Finally Stepping Into The Light

“So my spirit grows faint within me; my heart within me is dismayed.” ~ Psalm 143:4 NIV   For this entry I felt the need to pour out what's been going on with me lately so it may be darker at first, but then again, this is a dark time in my life right now, as I'm still trying to step into the light.      I've had this recurring image cross my mind of a person, whose hands and feet are chained to the ground unable to move. Anguish on his face, pulling against the chains with all his might, but to no avail. He longs for freedom, he's fought so many times before, but eventually he gives in to the great weight of the iron shackles.     Then, a word comes to mind: trapped. I feel trapped inside my body, and just thinking about that word creates this sinking feeling, and this metaphorical weight descends on me, like every action I take is impossible, and all motivation is lost. It's a hopeless feeling, to feel like no one could possibly understand, and nothing I&#