Finally Stepping Into The Light

It's currently 1:08 AM on January 1, 2020 as I write this, as we all turn to the first blank page of a 365 page book, each one to be written in permanent ink. Whether we realize it or not, we are each an author, and our daily choices will dictate the kind of story we publish. So as tradition goes, each year we build our story board, and lay out our goals in hopes of becoming the best version of ourselves we can be, to pursue a higher purpose and make an impact in the world around us. As for me, my goal is to completely change the narrative of my life, one paragraph at a time. All metaphors aside, I've been declining at a pretty steady pace this past year, both in my physical health and in my attitude towards life. Depression casts its long shadow, and envelops the light around me. Overeating promises to help me forget my troubles, only to add to my pain. As I stare the new year in the face, a growing sense of urgency is felt. The year 2020 is a make-or-break year for me, I ...

It's been a while since I've returned to my blogs...I just went through my last entry a couple months ago and I remember vividly those dark feelings stealing my light, my joy, my reason for living. In some ways I'm still fighting off those demons, only now things are looking very different since my CPAP device came in. See, everyone who knows me well enough knows I've been suffering from severe sleep apnea for the longest time, and it's not just snoring; it's literally an extreme lack of oxygen due to constant pauses or shallowness of breathing throughout the night. The amount of times this was happening became so frequent that fixing it was a matter of life and death.  Every morning that came brought new miseries, as my mind would be so clouded and dysfunctional, my head throbbing in pain, my eyes heavy with exhaustion, that even the most menial task seemed impossible. I missed so much work because I would just end up falling asleep at my computer on a regu...